You will go through it

Hi again,

                                                          
 Its been such a big episode so far and i have no excuse for disappearing *covers face but i could't control most of the events that have been happening. I've had great days, sad days, days I was completely broken, days I thought I can't go on any more and even days I played away the hours. But, here I am again and it feels good to be back YASS! *lol

 I promise to do at least one post a week and thank you for always understanding. *hugs. Before I forget myself with all my brouhahas, I will share a major episode of breakthrough  in my Life and how I went through it. So I hope you enjoy and learn one or two from this post.

So lets get started, 2014 has come and gone but it remains a memorable year for me. Most importantly, I lost one of the most important person in my Life, my Mother. If you've been reading my posts, you'd remember a dedicated post i did on her birthday in 2013 and if you haven't read it before please see here Maami- Special Dedication. I never realized that's going to be a sojourn to the last moments with her. The 18th of May 2014, turned to the most unexpected event of my life, it indeed have turned my life around. Truly and honestly, Maami she was the closest thing to me after God (she was my "Igi lehin Ogba- Back Bone).

I remember hopping to her room in the hospital when my brother-in-law just pulled me back to tell me, "she has gone". I asked, "gone where" thinking she has been transferred to another hospital but the guy just held me strong and told me, "maami is dead!" I screamed and shouted expecting her to just walk out of the room to tell me, "if you don't stop shouting there, tin ba gba e mu" (Translation- if i get hold of you) but no one came. (she didn't show up with that stern look that puts me in order.) It felt like life has just ended for me. Long story short, i didn't know how to move on, everything stopped and all i had left was memories and watching the time tick away.

The Breaking Point

This big episode changed my whole life completely; my relationship with God was the only solace i had. I told this short tale of my life just to show that everyone of us have a breaking point and that point decides our strength or weakness. It also determines who we are or will become at the end of the day. The following are some of the things I did and realized when I went to through my episode.

                                        

Realize you have a support system-
During my own episode, I was fortunate enough to have a good support system around me, from my family, to wonderful friends, Church and my colleagues. I can't thank God enough for them but one thing I realized was that I recognized the support i had, I could easily have ignored them and be withdrawn in my Sadness but I realized and it helped me tremendously.

                                             

Accept the Truth-
Another thing I realized at this period was to accept the truth. As a daughter, my mum also happen to be my best friend, like I earlier, she was the next after God. Though she lead me to Christ and all, I comfortably trusted her and her judgement. When she passed, at some point I would speak, have an almost realistic dream of her but then I come to question myself that, "She's really gone. Trust me, accepting the truth is very hard but you need it ASAP. Don't deny your hurt, disappointment and heart breaks , cry whenever you need to. (I remember a day I cried all the way from the office till I got home). Also, find someone you can share your thought and queries with, they might not give you the perfect solution or answer but they would listen to you and that burden will be lifted off you, like the saying that "a problem shared is half solved". That situation is not the end of your journey, a destiny is still in waiting for you to achieve.

                


Don't remain there, move on-
I don't know what the situation you might be going through or must have gone through, don't remain there. The situation must not define you, it should make you stronger and better. I remember I met some of my mum's friends at the anniversary of her passing and she was like, wow!, you even look way better than when your mum was here, we thought you wouldn't be able to move on", so i guess i shocked them all cos they all kept gazing at me *chuckles. Though very hard, you need to make a decision of what you want to take away from that episode. Tell yourself the truth and bring yourself back to reality and your reality is what you decide it would be *Capish!

Make your story a Lesson-
Yes, make your own story a lesson. I guess i wouldn't be able to share my story if i haven't learnt from it. Though i miss Maami everyday and it still feels like a dream but I've come to a realization that She's in a better place and she still expects me to keep the Torch blazing. So, have it at the back of your mind that your "story is someone's lesson" and also ask yourself, "what do I want people to learn".

                                    


Have got so much to say but lemme stop here, I wouldn't want to overwhelm you with the gory details now *lol. I'm not claiming that these are the perfect solutions to whatever issues you might be going through but these are my own lessons and I'm sharing them with you *lol.
Till next time, do enjoy the best God has given you.

I remain, Olufunke and I LOVE YOU!